When things get hard!
“Here I am, the day after my 29th birthday, and I feel empty. I can’t seem to put my thoughts together or make a decision on what to do with myself. I’m frustrated and just downright lonely. I don’t even know if this is normal or what actually is normal anymore…
I keep running from my illness but it always seems to catch up with me and take me down with it…
I know that I won’t always feel this way though and that tomorrow may be a better day but sometimes I don’t feel like waiting for tomorrow. I want instantaneous results and I’m impatient at the best of times…
Just another day in my life, in my mind.
I’m trying to take all the advice I can get about keeping busy and exercising. Apparently it helps keep one stable. However, on days like today I can’t even decide what socks to wear nevermind make decisions on what to do to keep myself busy. Nevertheless, I sat down and made the decision to write down my thoughts. I guess that counts…
I know that once I’m finished here I’m going to have to make another choice and lying on the couch staring at the ceiling fan is not a good option. Maybe I’ll read, or watch TV or maybe I’ll be really productive and study… I’m fighting this feeling. I’m fighting an everyday battle and I’m going to win. Maybe not today but I will win. I’m not letting bipolar beat me.” – Heather
It is a new week and this week our focus is on helping others exercise. So often we think of exercise as a physical thing, but we exercise so many different things on a daily basis. And we should, many of the changes we want in our lives are not going to happen over night we have to practice them.
Take Heather’s story for example. She is currently struggling with her mood disorder, but she understands that she has to exercise all the tools she has learnt to keep her bi-polar at bay. Exercising an attitude of gratitude, exercising keeping her mind and body active. As well as exercising taking her thoughts captive and challenging them.
Thank you for sharing Heather and keep on exercising those good health habits it may be very difficult right now, but will lead to a better tomorrow.
